time is flying by... kind of

today i'm at 26w6d/26w2d and as much as it feels like, omg theres only 3 months till this baby is here, i'm pretty sure i have felt almost every day of this pregnancy. i'm no where near as nervous as i was in the first trimester, and the second trimester did not bring that much more calm to my nerves, but i feel like i'm finally at a place where i'm less worried about baby and her health. i think it really helped when we hit the viability mark, and i think with each passing day/week i'm more confident that the day will come will i will hold a healthy baby girl, that i grew and birthed, in my arms. i've made a habit of counting my blessings every night before i'm able to drift off into sleepyland, and every day i'm more thankful for the tiny movements i feel from our little blueberry. trust me i count all of our other blessings too, as much as i can before my brain gets exhausted and shuts down for the night.

i can't believe that Sofia is 2 (plus a month) and i am totally in awe of her. babies grow up sooooooooooooo fast, its almost unbelievable despite witnessing her tiny growth every single day of her life. i can't believe we'll have another teeny tiny baby in this apartment in just a few short months. its wild. also wild, her accidental fall over the back of the couch the other morning. she just leaned over the couch too far (while jumping up and down of course) and took a nose forehead dive. she cried for a while, i somehow managed not to (my in laws were over for sunday morning bagel breakfast and i didn't want to look like an over-emotional pregnant woman/make everyone else more upset than they already were) but she was just fine. i of course made sure she did not sleep for many hours being the insane worrier of her two parents and of course i checked on her multiple times that night, i guess to make sure she was breathing at a normal rate? what else was i looking for? who knows, anyway she got a nice knot on her head and a little bit of bruising, but thank god for her little blonde bangs. and thank you god for the bruising not being worse. and no black eye. i hate accidents like this, but its the reality of little kids. they will fall and get big boo boos sometimes. it sucks, you feel like a bad parent for a little bit (at least i do), and then they're over it, and in a day or two the boo boo is gone. i've struggled with this a lot, guilt over injuries/not being able to prevent any and all injury, but i'm (still) learning to accept it. ug, i still hate it.

on a more positive note is what i love, sofia's night time kisses. she and lovedove have had a preset kiss routine including butterfly kisses, eskimo kisses, hawaiian kisses for quite some time now. lately sofia will grab my face to make sure i get some of the special kisses too. its the cutest and most loving routine i have ever seen, and im so happy to be a part of it.

i guess i don't have much to say. my nose has been really dry, and i've continued to have some pubic bone pain here and there, it comes and it goes. other than those 2 things, i feel pretty good, and i'm pretty sure i don't even have to mention that i'm completely exhausted most of the time. i think that's a given at this stage in the game keeping in mind that i waddle after a 2 yr old all day before i head to work at 4pm, get home at 9:30, inhale dinner, and watch an hour of tv.

i feel like this post is really random. whatever, im hungry.