going backwards but not really

met with my dr who i love soooo much today. haven't seen her in like 6 weeks because of our conflicting vacations so it was wonderful to see her today. i needed to talk to her about a few things and the due date was bugging me. to me, based on many ivf due date calculators, it was (and all of my calculations were going by) a due date of 1.15.12 based on egg retrieval date. she wants to go by transfer day, and with that, puts the due date at 1.20.12 (my sister's 26th birthday). regardless of feeling like its taking a step back, im letting it go. its 4 days, certainly not something i need to stress over, but it puts us back to 20w4d. so i guess ill be going by that from now on.

we discussed many things at the exam, the many appts i have coming up and the increasing frequency of the number of times i'll need to be seen to be adequately monitored. i have two appts next week, an ekg and echocardiogram on monday, and the fetal echocardiogram next thurs. she said once i hit 28 weeks ill be in there more and more, to be examined, meet people whom i may see again around/post delivery, etc. she takes so much time to talk to me (prob about 20 minutes) when we have stuff to discuss and today we talked about insulin management during/after delivery, and that babies of type 1 moms go automatically to the nicu to see how they handle their own blood sugar management. im a little sad about this, but whatever needs to be done to make sure we're both fine is fine with me. (oy, she also wants me to give her my pre-pregnancy basal rates from my pump. i have no idea if i have them. thats going to be another headache.) however, that being said, we will not be having many visitors to the hospital while she's in the nicu. was up when Sofia was born and placed in the nicu (*long story short, lovedove's strep B test was expiring, and they ran some additional tests on sofia when she was born. she had a slightly elevated temp, which landed her in the nicu. on day 1 in the nicu, she had a "choking incident" - which i feel is bc she wasn't suctioned well enough after she was born - and was placed on a 5 day hold - which none of the labor day weekend staff mentioned to us. every day we thought we were taking her home, and everyday they told us no, until the regular staff came back and informed us of why it was a mandatory hold. whatever. it was just super frustrating), we had everyone come anyway and we kind of regret that. only two people could be in at baby's side in the nicu at a time, which meant it was me and a guest, as lovedove was usually entertaining the next in line to see baby Sofia, and getting some much needed rest. lovedove got very little time with sofia during visiting hours, and i believe this is something we'll be doing differently this time. everyone will just have to be patient, we know they love us and our new baby girl already, but they'll just have to wait a few extra days until she's in the clear to get up close and personal.

she also talked about potential complications we might run into along the way and how she'd handle them. i love talking about things in advance, it makes me feel so much more prepared for what could/might/hopefully wont happen. i just kept telling her, that whatever she thought was best is what'd i'd vote for in the moment. i trust her completely. its so amazing to feel that way about a doctor, especially a doctor of this specialty. im so thankful.

she mentioned that if she's starting to get concerned about one or both of us, and things we might have to push things along early, that she might opt for an amnio at 38 weeks to check for lung maturity. now i know we're way ahead of ourselves there but i was still glad she brought it up. like i said i much rather be informed.

this morning i dropped off my car to have the work started on it today or tomorrow and picked up the rental.  they didn't have any small cars available so they gave me a minivan at the price of a compact. i was totally fine with this because we have sofia's bigger 2nd birthday party on saturday and will certainly benefit from the extra space. im really hoping the car gets fixed quickly. the rental girl said they're usually done with jobs in 3-5 business days which would be totally amazing, but i dont have my hopes up considering how much i was jerked around by the last auto body place. im hoping though bc the rental is all out of pocket cost, so the faster it gets done, the less money i have to spend. oh, duh, the whole point of me mentioning all that was that i forgot sofia's stroller on the sidewalk and went to my doctor appointment without it! luckily sofia was super duper well behaved and i have no idea how she pulled that one off. she was so patient with me all day, i was so proud of her. thank you Sofia, you are wonderful. i told her that many many times today. it was crazy. 90 mins at the car place, 35 in the car, and another 60ish at the dr appt. she was a-maz-ing. what a marvelous 2 year old you are!!!

anyway, im hoping my clients show up tonight, and we get rolling on the right foot next week. hoping everyone is feeling good and wishing good luck to Meela on her upcoming ER. keep growing little follies!