9dp5dt

my love affair with dollar tree tests may have ended. i went to Deal$ and bought 6 of the same pregnancy test yesterday (the two i used had been sitting in my medicine cabinet for like 3 months) because i had researched the situation and found out that dollar tree bought deal$ in 2006, and there aren't any local dollar tree stores. long story short, i didn't do that well holding my pee last night because i had some issues with my insulin pump at 2:30am, my sugar was at 250 and i was furious. so of course while i put on a new pump in the bathroom i figured id pee. when i got up at 6:30 and my sugar had returned to a normal/healthy range i tested. i took one deal$ test (which is the same exact product/hpt that i had bought from dollar tree) and the line was very faint. so i took another one, another faint line. i started to get kind of concerned, so i took the Answer brand test i had laying around. that came back with a strong positive, thank God. that put my fears to rest and made me mad at the cheapie tests. "see, im pregnant you stupid tests", i didn't actually say that, but that's what i was thinking. needless to say ill be purchasing more non-dollar tree/non-deal$ tests today. its just so unfortunate bc those other ones are only $1 and so many people on ttc sites seems to like them a lot (ttc women's preferred hpts). guess ill be blowing some more $ on the bigger brands. at least this is a temporary addiction to feed, and hopefully its the last time ill be testing, God willing.

huge congrats to Roxxroxx @ Bangkok Baby Project for her bfps and great beta!

(later in the day/evening)

yes i am very confused about why the same product from 2 different stores has yielded such odd results. i bought a 3 pack of FRERs today and i got a very strong + on that and a pretty faint + on the cheapie.  dont know why i had such great results the first day i tested and crappy ones with the newer ones i bought.

people at work have been asking me about how "things went". i told them that i wont know until the end of the week, and in any case i wont be talking about it for a while. i'd either be getting back into the procedures for the second round, or id be keeping my mouth shut about my very new pregnancy. i kind of wish everyone had figured out proper infertility lady early pregnancy etiquette without it having to be addressed, but i feel good that everyone will not be asking now.

also .. with the progesterone suppositories, i hate it a lot less since i bought a pack of finger cots. they're like teeny tiny condoms for your fingers. i know that chefs and medical people use them, and i guess people who have to use suppositories are also ideal candidates for their use. im much less grossed out. i highly recommend them.

yea that is a lot of random stuff, but its all stuff ive been forgetting to write.  can you have "pregnancy brain" this early?



qotd 23
put your ipod on shuffle and list the first 10 songs that play.
(im kind of VERY scared of this one, i have a lot of random stuff on there, i should have put my ipod on my list of guilty pleasures, pls dont judge me)
1. if i cant have you - yvonne elliman, saturday night fever soundtrack
2. hold on - wilson phillips
3. no one will do - mjb
4. nasty boys - janet jackson
5. this love - maroon 5
6. breaking point - etta james
7. r-e-s-p-e-c-t - aretha franklin
8. i kissed a girl - katy perry
9. dont drink the water - dmb
10. hey jude - beatles

(that is the best shuffle ive ever done somehow. there were no disney songs, no boy bands, no spice girls, no musicals, and none of sofia's lullabies that we always have to take with us on vacations. that was truly incredible)

8dp5dt evening and qotd

i managed to hold my pee for 5 hours (the entire time i was at work) and got home and tested again.

so im happy that there is still a line there and im starting to get kind of optimistic. i have activities and outings lined up for the early part of the next two days, and in the afternoon/evenings ill be at work. so theoretically one would think that the next two days should fly and ill be at my beta appt on friday morning in no time. i guess thats not really likely but im hoping. i will be continuing to PoSS (some sticks.... courtesy of Roxxroxx) but ill spare you the viewing of things i've peed on from here on out. I may post a single picture of them all laid out in chronological order once im done peeing on things. (truly though, these tests come with a tiny eye dropper kind of thing so i pee in a plastic cup and then apply the designated 4 drops to the test. so im not actually peeing on anything.) like i said earlier, my goal is just to make these hpts my b*tch (i mean that as non-derogatorily towards women as possible, just couldnt think of another way to say it) and to just be as informed as i can be prior to my beta on friday.


qotd 22
how has your financial situation affected your fertility journey?
personally i feel like this question should be worded the other way around. for us, we knew that family creating/baby making would be pricey because we couldn't do it ourselves, so when we got married and got many monetary gifts, we put a good chunk of that money into a savings account.we did our best to never touch that account ever, it was strictly reserved for baby/family things and/or emergency use. that savings account has allowed us to explore all options necessary to date. it may be half of what it once was, but you cant really put a price on family expansion.

i mean i definitely understand how if you dont have amazing insurance like we do, your financial situation would certainly affect the decisions you'd be making. we just got lucky with insurance and we managed to plan for this kind of situation just enough (it seems). im just thankful that we've been able to make the decisions we have been able to make without thinking about super drastic financial stuff. its drastic enough, but its not like we have a mortgage to pay, didnt have to sell a car, etc, or anything like that.