things i keep forgetting to mention

i hit my belly on lots of things, not hard, just enough to remind me i'm hauling a kid around in my body. most often i bump the belly on the refrigerator door when im opening it. i've done it many many times, i think its funny, since i so often open that door to look for a snack.

i've been getting super clumsy. i drop stuff and i feel like my hand eye coordination is off. my balance is lacking lately, especially in the middle of the night when im getting up to pee. its about 13 steps from my bed to the bathroom, but some nights you should see the help i need from the walls to stay upright. i have also developed a little bit of anxiety about stairs. i feel so afraid that im going do fall down a flight of them, so im very conscious about holding onto a banister at all times.

my feet started to swell a little for the first time last night. nothing major.

i've been having braxton hicks pretty often, prob for the last 2 weeks, but they never happen out of no where. its always in response to bending, or bending with some straining/reaching. its getting a little annoying. kind of like how the hiccups are getting a little annoying. regardless, im thankful for these annoyances.

im convinced this baby is more active one day and then really tired the next. tuesday she was kind of crazy at night, wednesday she was pretty calm, and this morning she's nuts again. i love feeling her, im beginning to wonder how much i'll miss her movements once she's born.

i totally hate the unknown nature of when she'll actually arrive. i try to google for "average week of delivery for type 1 moms" and read about other people's experiences, but all of that totally doesn't matter. there's no science to predicting if i'll develop pre-e and need a c-section earlier, or if i'll be totally fine and go into labor spontaneously, or if my water will break tomorrow. i just keep trying to read as much info as possible to remind myself that anything is possible and even if i go to my due date, which i feel like i could, but don't think i will (i'm not sure why i think that), its only another 38 days till we get to meet little baby girl. trying to wrap my head around how close we're getting to the happy (god willing) end of this pregnancy. it seems super unreal still, even after all of this prep, and work, and waiting. how strange.

but i totally can't wait.