almost 31w

sooooooo, tomorrow is sprinkle #1 of 2. i totally can't believe it. it truly is the strangest thing how slow the days seem to go, but then all of a sudden you've got less than 65 days (absolute tops) left in your pregnancy. thats. fucking. crazy.

i'm happy that i'll be seeing family and friends tomorrow, but there will be quite a few people absent that i wish could be there. i intend to have a spritzer, maybe 2 if i feel crazy, but i always find it difficult to actually drink an alcoholic drink, as much as i want to.

um, what else? i keep having these here and there nights where i wake up in the middle of the night, usually due to my cgm telling me that my sugar is too low, and then i have a really hard time going back to sleep after i get up to eat/drink something to raise my sugar. last night i was up from 2-4am. i'd say this has been happening probably once a week, but its not too bad, im just even more tired the following day.

today we met with the nurse who works with the diabetic mommies to be/mommies at the hospital. it was our first time in the hospital and it was so tiny compared to the hospital that lovedove delivered at, it felt like we had driven to a tiny hospital in the country/upstate/out of ny. she gave us a super mini tour of the labor and delivery area and im not ogin to lie, i totally got a little freaked out when i saw the bed in the room because i remembered how it breaks down when you're going to deliver and stuff. it was really some kind of trip for the both of us i think. we heard a newborn baby cry from one of the occupied rooms, who was probably a few hours old, or maybe even a day or two, and i thought, omg, we're going to have a little person that makes those sounds very soon. sofia hardly ever cried, she was such a good baby. i just cant wait to meet this little one (clearly i want her to stay in there until she's fully baked) but im so excited.

i've lovingly begun to refer to her as
schnozola, but only ocassionally lol

my nonstress test and sono went just fine yesterday. baby was moving around a lot, kicked the monitors a few times, the nurses are always happy with her heart rate, and that comforts me. my blood pressure has been very good and my sugars have been good too since im adjusting my insulin rates so often. im so glad and thankful to be receiving such wonderful and comprehensive care. the downside of being one of their most frequent clients is that they keep letting jane, the-im-new-at-sonography-so-i-totally-blow-at-this-and-so-do-your-take-home-pics-champion, do my sonograms. i sound like an asshole with these complaints because i get to hear her heart beat and see her weekly, and soon ill be hearing and seeing her twice a week, but .. well no buts. i guess its an asshole complaint.however, im still dying for a 3d/4d sono, i want to get an idea of what her little face looks like! im pretty sure this baby's got a big nose. this is the pic from last week, when i had the pro with 15 years of experience. her hand is usually by her mouth, im assuming she's a thumb sucker like i was. hoping we can convince her to take a binky instead when she comes out.

hoping tomorrow goes smoothly. oh also. we no longer have to meet with the adoption social worker pre-baby, only once she's here. so as much as that might delay the process a little bit, i'm fine with it. having one less home visit might save us some money too. speaking of money, my paycheck wound up decent, not good but enough to pay my monthly payment on my big student loan which is good. thank you clients for showing up. also in good money news, we got checks for the second accident, one refunding the deductible, and the other refunding the rental fee. i was overjoyed to get those. thank you god, and thank you insurance people for doing your jobs well.

looking forward to tomorrow, then its thanksgiving, then its december, my second sprinkle, time for sister-in-law's holiday visit/christmas, new years, and baby time. what?!?! craziness.