As Sofia gets bigger and bigger, she is getting more and more mobile. As she attempts to pull up on unsteady household objects, or tries to put non-baby-things in her mouth, I will usually try to get her attention using my discipline voice first prior to walking over to remove her from whatever potential harm or object she shouldn't be near. Disa is very familiar with the discipline voice from her puppy days, and her occasional behavioral outbursts. This has created a unique situation in my house. As I try to sternly talk Sofia out of whatever mischievous activity she's in, Disa thinks I'm speaking to her, and will shake with anxiety while she lays on the couch next to me because she can't figure out what she has done wrong. Even when I say "Sofia, don't touch that" Disa still thinks I'm talking to her due to the tone of voice I'm using. Hence when I address Sofia I'll say "No Sofia, Good Disa!". Its very interesting. I hope the dog becomes less sensitive to this tone as Sofia becomes more and more curious. Fingers crossed. Its very tiring to address my human child and then have to praise my furry one all of the time.
So I'm still on the CGM learning curve roller coaster. I had been doing better but in the last week or so I've hit some more rocky road. I've had a few issues with my pump being clogged, which I can always assume is the problem, but I won't really know until I remove it and see if the cannula is clogged, which is a risky move because then I may be under-utilizing a perfectly good 3 day pod. It's been quite frustrating lately. I can't tell if the poorer numbers are due to exercising less ( the weather has been very rainy and I haven't been able to get out on any walks with Sofia AND basketball is over) or if I just need to create a non-period basal. It seems that my numbers are better when I am menstruating, but I'm not really sure. Sorry if this is TMI.
Anyway, I've realized that I really am going to have to become a complete lunatic with my diabetes if and when I'm able to get pregnant. I think that I've tried to avoid the reality of how meticulous I'm going to have to become, but I think I know even now, prior to any pre-pregnancy consultations, the lengths that I will need to go to in order to keep my diabetes in outrageously strict control. This will mean really scheduling my meals, making sure to do insulin way before I eat, measuring out exact food portions (I hate measuring things when it's not for a recipe), exercising on a regular and consistent basis, and God knows what else. I'm sure that when I am able to get pregnant I will be so focused and dedicated that it will all just seem like things on a to-do list, but it's very daunting at this point.
As far as pre-pregnancy consultations, I have my first one in the beginning of June. I'm kind of excited, but also kind of sad. My wife and I work opposite schedules mon-thurs, and of course my appointment is early in the day when she is teaching as they do not have any hours that would accomodate both of our schedules. And of course her co-teacher is already going to be absent that day and she will have to go in to work. So I will be walking into this sit down appointment with just my daughter, who they will probably assume I birthed, and then I'll have to explain the whole sitaution. I debated taking one of our friends who knows the baby plan (as we intend to keep the process secret from 99.5% of our family and friends as we begin trying for baby #2) but then I'd have to explain how "no, this is not my wife, my wife is working, but she is just a good friend" and I feel that situation might seem a little odd. I'll just put on my big girl mommy pants and go without any adult support. I'm sure I'll be fine.
Anyway, baby #1 is just waking up from a nap, and we'll be heading out on a laundry trip in just a few. You can not imagine how badly I wish I had a washer dryer in our apartment building. (its only a 3 fam)
More to come soon, stay tuned.
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