.... and we're back!

after a 2 week hiatus from blogging, im starting to settle back into the daily grind. we arrived home from our trip to PDX on saturday morning at 6am and since then we've been trying to get back onto ny time. we're pretty much there, although Sofia is trying to make the most of the "jet lag" excuse as little missy didn't want to go to bed until almost 10pm last night. it was fine, she probably just wanted to see as many Oscar dresses as possible. she's a little fancy pants, and i'm really not sure where she gets that from. its certainly not me lol. my wife gets fancy occasionally, but this little one consistently puts on a necklace and a wristlet to push one of her stuffed animals in her baby doll stroller. she is so funny i cant even begin to tell you. she'll be 18 months on saturday and holy moly, the time has absolutely flown. it usually doesnt seem it day to day, but it goes so fast. believe me when i tell you. people told me before i was a parent, and i believed them, but i had no idea how fast they meant. you'll see (if you havent already).

our trip was absolutely fabulous. we packed a lot of activities into the first days of the trip and kind of tired ourselves out by the end, but it was wonderful family time spent in a new place. i loved the "green" atmosphere and the people there were very friendly and kind. kind of lacking diversity though. i like a much more colorful mix in a neighborhood and the neighborhood lines seemed to be pretty clearly drawn. not important to focus on for me though, i was just a visitor. i fell in love with a local grocery store , a hair cutting spot that gives you free beer while you wait, and a self serve fro-yo place that was better than any other ive ever been to, so many topping options!!! i was in love. in the land of the hipsters we stuck out like sore thumbs (i think) but we truly had a fantastic trip. i was able to mostly let go of any ttc anxiety and i did a whole lot less thinking than i usually do.

so, back to the ttc journey. march is filled with appointments, 6 in the next 16 days to be exact. bloods this friday, (next week) water sonogram monday, endometrial biopsy on tuesday, ivf "orientation" tuesday night, appt at diabetes in pregnancy center thursday, then the "re-visit" with the fertility social worker the following wednesday. not to mention that saturday basketball starts this week (cant wait) and Sofia's swimming classes start next monday (also cant wait). we are going to be so busy. we also have to get in touch with the insurance company to make sure they'll cover my ivf medications the way they are supposed to, im not dealing with any of that run around shit like we had last time with the trigger shot. and then i think the last thing is to purchase a back up vial of sperm just in case the thaw with Sofia's donor doesnt go well. hopefully we dont need it at all, but whatever will be will be. thats all you can tell yourself when you've got no control in a situation. im excited that we have a plan, im just hoping there arent too many more bumps in the road. i feel like we've hit a million in just 7 months. maybe everything will go perfectly from here on out? lol, one can only wish.

im sure im forgetting things i wanted to put in here but these are 2 i actually remember. first i wanted to say that i cant believe that i now have "followers". did you read that? multiple. more than one. i feel like a "real" blogger now. im so happy that people are reading this and i hope people are finding it helpful/something to comiserate with/etc. thank you thank you thank you to anyone who reads this blog. even though i have no idea who you are(i mean some of you i have an idea, because i read your blogs), it helps me to feel that my feelings are validated just by knowing that people took the time out to read a piece of my story.

i want to end with some positive looking news...  The Cornfed Feminist is looking like she may finally have gotten through her 2YW (2 year wait) for her bfps! i keep saying, we'll all get there. she's looking like she's got the latest proof.

hope your monday is going great, keep your heads up ladies :o)