9w (until im told different)

i have my 9w sono today and my first visit at Winthrop. im hoping that i fit well there. the only thing that seems like it might be a constant issue that requires attention is their "no children" policy at the appts. its inconvenient for me, clearly, but luckily Sofia's two grandmas have pretty flexible schedules so im hoping i'll always be able to set her up somewhere and then head to the appts. so today i think im just meeting with an ob nurse or someone on the ob staff, and next week is my appt with the doctor.

i keep forgetting to tell you about the insane dreams i've been having lately. i wake up totally entertained by the memory of these.

in the last week, i've dreamt that:
1. i took one hit off of a glass pipe (that looked like a crack pipe) but had mj in it, bc i forgot that i was pregnant, and then remembered
2. was in a bar and drank two beers, completely aware that i was pregnant, and kept telling everyone that it was fine
3. that for some reason, myself, my sister, and one of her friends, had to kill a convicted felon. yes, our job was to kill him, almost with our bare hands. i think i hit him with a textbook and broke his nose, but i kept crying because i didn't want to kill him. it was the strangest dream i think ive ever had. we were in some like empty apartment or some big empty space and we were chasing him and trying to hit him hard with stuff we could find. it was horrible. wtf.
4. that i read a post by 2girlsandababy that they got their bfp and posted a pic. its very odd to me that i now dream of blog stuff.

i cant wait to dream more, i think this is all hysterical.

all of my symptoms seem to be getting stronger. boobs are getting bigger/sorer (when i was measured the other day Motherh.ood maternity, they measured me as an E/F, im usually a DDD, which i guess is technically an E, but i dont let myself think about that bc E sounds enormous, and F just sounds way too close to G and this all scares me greatly) nausea is more present daily but no puking yet, and i now have noticeable cravings/aversions. cravings include cookies and milk (BIG TIME) anything sweet, and chicken nuggets lol, and so far i guess i have some aversions to certain healthy foods that i usually love ie sweet potatoes and artichokes. its odd, i love those usually. so based on all of these factors im expecting good news today. im expecting to see that baby is doing just what s/he should be doing (oh baby's gender is another thing) and hopefully all is going well.

baby's gender. at least one person (who would not have known that i was pregnant unless we told her) swears up and down that she knows im having a boy. people swore up and down that lovedove was pregnant with a boy but all of the old wives tale things we did said girl (we didn't find out Sofia's gender until her birth day). ok, you can have a gut feeling, but i dont understand these people's need to predict a baby's gender correctly. you've got a 50/50 chance of being right, why get so crazy about it? i think i have to find out this baby's gender before the birth day. i really want to know. i wish i could know right now!