first on my list today, is the most painful stretch mark i've ever gotten. i swear none of them have ever hurt me, but given the rapid body changes that can occur during pregnancy, i guess i understand it. i have a few new ones on the underside my left boob, but the one that hurts, is directly in the middle, and its right where the skin stretches from my rib cage. it feels sore randomly throughout the day, when im tossing and turning at night, and whenever else it wants. its already been a few days, i want the soreness to go away, now!
cravings/inability to control my desire for food. i'm not eating like a monster (yet) but i have noticed a few changes in my day to day life. one, i am now stashing food everywhere. my fave cheesedoodles (Jax) in my car, candy in my desk at work, and im responsible for the small amount of junk food that is currently living on top of our fridge/in our freezer. two, cravings. absolutely everything i see on tv in terms of food, i want. cooking shows are torturous for me. even commercials for friggen tac.o bell (which i do not eat) are making me drool with their nacho cheese dori.to taco shells. i want to eat everything i see, or talk about. the other night at work, the night secretary and i were talking about knishes. don't you know that i had to go to the grocery store on the way home to get some. the thought of them was just too incredible, i had to have one, and trust me, it did not disappoint. i'm doing a pretty good job of controlling my sugar levels and i haven't been spiking too high at all. most days im under 170 all day, the weekends are harder though, less controllable food situations (eating at family's houses, chicken wings with super carby delicious sauces), and my timing is usually poorer in making sure to do my insulin 15-20 mins before i eat. but i think i've been doing great, and the fact that your body is doing so much work forming the baby makes insulin resistance a lot lower, and lets me make more use of less insulin. that has been a help for sure, i'm not looking forward to adjusting for the insulin resistance in the 2nd and 3rd trimester. i've read that you can need up to 3x the amount of insulin per day by the end of your pregnancy. thats crazy! on an average day right now im doing 50ish units of insulin, to think i might need 150 to get me through the day by the end of this is completely insane. i'll be going through pods (the insulin pump i use) like crazy. they only hold a little over 200 units, so if it gets to that point, i'll be changing my pod every day and a half. wow, not really looking forward to that.
prego face? i think im starting to look weird in pictures that are taken of me. i (think i) can always tell prego face on others. i don't know exactly what i look for or see in women who are pregnant, but its something with the eyes. i'm not sure if its minor signs of tiredness around the eyes or what, but i think i have it now too. lovedove thinks my nose is getting pointier. i have kind of a polish nose, its pretty round on the end, and now this one thinks its getting pointy. i have no idea but it just sounds weird, and ugly lol.
that might be it for the undeniables.
what else.
oh the dog is sick. im not sure what happened to her. we think it was an ear infection (that we thought cleared up) but it must have gone down into her head more bc her eye got all swollen and she was in pain when she would open her jaw to eat, yawn, play, etc. took her to a local vet (i ususally go to one in the city where i used to work) and they gave us antibiotics, eye drops, and ear ointment. of course i have to pill her/open her mouth and shove a pill down her throat, which hurts her, to administer the antibiotics. its terrible. i cried the first 3 times i had to do it. i pill her every single day to give her pep.cid ac to control her chronic sour stomach, and that is pretty much how we discovered the problem/knew it was serious. i went to open her mouth the other morning and she yelped in pain. i felt terrible. i feel better now that we took her to the vet and got her the meds she needs, but she's still not eating or drinking much at all. this is all so stressful for us, i hope this passes quickly. my poor disa pup. <3
i meet my doctor for the first time this coming thursday. im excited to have another appt and get the ball rolling with a new doctor. i have to find out if i can bring Sofia to the appt though. i know she wasn't/isn't allowed at the sono appts, but i wonder if ill have to find care for her for dr appts too. that is a bit inconvenient but whatever, it will all work out, it always does.
oh, the thing im struggling with lately... i kind of feel like a dope bc im starting to use pregnancy products and im not even out of my first trimester. a few times in the last 2 weeks ive used lovedove's bellabands so that i dont have to button the top button of my pants bc its starting to get uncomfortable. i know that my belly changes have been super slight and lovedove and i are prob the only people that can notice it, but it definitely is starting to change. also i bought a boppy body pillow. i don't know why i have weird issues about using pregnancy items early, i am certainly pregnant, i have the pictures to prove it. just my weird brain i guess.
yea thats it for now. gonna try to rest for a bit before Sofia wakes up again. speaking of that little angel/monster, one of her new things is to ask why. when i ask her nicely to stop doing something or not to do something, she asks why. i tell her. sometimes that answer is followed up by another why. SHES NOT EVEN 2 YET!?! how in the world is she asking why already? i love her so much, my God. oh, the best thing ever yesterday. it was father's day, i guess grandfather's day in her case, and my dad loves music/instruments etc. he had two different guitars out for the bbq, her little set of drums (seen here), an amp with a mic hooked up, and his harmonica. they played on each one of those one at a time. she even taught herself how to play the harmonica. it was so cute! once she got the hang of it she was doing these mini performances and would wait for her applause! i was afraid she would pass out from breathing so deeply/rapidly at one point but she was really into it. it was so fun. we had such a great time. oh man she's a great kid, and a hysterical entertainer. we truly are blessed.
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