new distraction option

im totally stealing this from 2girlsandababy because im pretty sure i'll desperately need something other than my fertility journey on my mind for the upcoming weeks. its a 30 day thing, so hopefully by the end ill be pregnant. here's to hoping! ( ill answer question/topic of the day #1 before i end this post)

speaking of pregnancies, my assigned nurse that i work with at my RE office told me yesterday that she's pregnant and having a girl. she's a very tiny person so her scrubs must do a great job at hiding the belly! i was really happy for her when she told me, but also pretty jealous, but more happy than jealous. she must be pretty far along if she knows she's having a girl right? she was saying what a hard time she has with girls names and i said how its the complete opposite for us. we already have a girls name picked out if i wind up pregnant with a baby girl, and then she asked what it was. we aren't going to tell anyone the name of the baby that i will eventually birth, but i told her because i know the secret is super safe with her, plus i kind of want to be her friend, yea im clingy in vulnerable situations. i might be clingy in general if i like you, i feel like thats weird to admit. whatever. anyway, i told her the name, and she loved it. she swore she wouldn't steal it. not like it matters, but it kind of does. a random park dad and i had that conversation not too long ago. he was saying how people shouldnt be able to claim names for their unborn children. and really, we know it doesnt matter what others do, if you really love a name you're just going to name your kid that, but for me i think it kind of does matter. i would be super upset if a friend named their kid what we'd potentially name a second daughter. do you give a crap when your friends claim certain names pre-birth? i think a few names have been on hold with our friends, but really under the radar, you'd have to hear it from a friend who is closer to that person, it wasnt really general knowledge. i guess the best way to avoid it is to hold out on the name disclosure till the birth.

the injection process was fun last night. being a diabetic who injected for the first 3 months after being diagnosed, i have no problem with needles/injections. lovedove looked like a mad scientist mixing the meds and i was glad to have her be so involved. i ate dinner while she prepped everything. she even laid out my meds for the next two days. it was cute. i felt happy and blessed that she's right by my side through everything. i kind of feel bad though. she always thought she wanted 3 babies, and after all of this hullabaloo with me, i feel like it may have stolen that desire from her. i mean, dont get me wrong, one kid is a handful, im sure we can handle 2, and 3 is questionable/potentially do-able. but i think that if things had gone swimmingly with me in the first few months she might still be super set on 3. whatever, time will tell, we have to get to baby #2 before we can even think about the possibility of a 3rd.

ok now for my 30 day thingy.

1. what is the meaning behind your blog name?

well ladies (and gents, although im pretty sure no men read ttc blogs) i think its pretty clear. i thought ttc was just going to be a path i went down with a few bumps or twists or turns in the road, but it wound up being an obstacle course. i think this blog was originally named something else, but i cant even remember what it was.