Saturday, April 28, 2012

2 days until transfer

so i keep forgetting to write about how uncomfortable/bloated i have been feeling since the retrieval. i guess i have been trying not to dwell on the negative, but its been pretty annoying. dr B said that i could potentially feel this way for approximately a week. im hoping it subsides sooner rather than later.

i feel like im in the 2ww already but these past 2/3 days have just been like practice waiting. lovedove leaves tomorrow am, and i really feel ilke ive just been avoiding the reality that she wont be here for the transfer/for 2.5 days after. its going to be very difficult emotionally. anyway....

qotd 12
what are you most looking forward to about biological parenthood?
i just want to experience pregnancy/baby movement/etc. i also kind of feel like becoming a biological parent will finally make me feel like a "real" mom. sometimes i doubt myself, like i know that im a great parent, but sometimes i just feel like im not as much of a parent as bio parents are, or something like that. its weird, they're awkward thoughts that i feel like i shouldnt even have. i hate the word should, it always implies fault/guilt.

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