the day before -the procedure before- the big day

no problem with trigger last night, did bloods this morning at the close office, then went over 10ish pages of directions, what to expect, medication instruction for the next 2.5 weeks. all the way up until my pregnancy blood test, currently scheduled for friday may 11th. holy guacamole batman, this is really going to happen. isnt it just "perfect" timing since the 11th is 2 days before mothers day?? yea, perfect if i wind up with a bfp, kind of devastating if i wind up with a bfn. ill either be intoxicated on happiness or alcohol come mothers day. whatever.

i feel like the fucking easter bunny with a basket full of eggs. if im not mistaken there are quite a few of them in there, and im looking forward to finding out exactly how many are in there. pretty sure my dr will tell lovedove by the time we leave the clinic tomorrow. im also looking forward to the "twilight" anesthesia they're going to give me. i hope i say a bunch of shit and wind up a lot less nauseous than i usually am after general anesthesia.

i took off tomorrow and thurs, as well as mon and tues of next week so that i can just try to clear my brain and rest my  body for this. clearly thats taking a moderate hit financially, but i feel like it might not be the worst thing to do. im going to try to just be as calm as i can be, especially since lovedove will be away from sunday to thurs. its going to be a rough few days but i know we'll get through it.

random side note, love that cbs is pushing the prime time lgbt sex/intimacy envelope on the good wife. i have quite the crush on kalinda. props to cbs, in case you want to read more about the exact scene. i absolutely love the sight of 2 women together, it doesnt even have to be sexual, i mean that scene is, but i just love seeing the love that i live, portrayed on a huge stage for everyone. its just so beautiful to me. anyway enough about me being a huge lesbian who loves women.

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If an observant stranger were to talk into your home, what clues would lead them to believe that you have struggled with infertility?
currently there isnt anything really out except for the papers that i received today talking about pre and post retrieval, my medications list and instructions, etc. my medications are away in the closet, theres nothing marked on the calendar explicitly. another meh question. at least im keeping this up.