7dp5dt - evening

usually when ttc women post 2x in a day they have some kind of news. i dont have any news other than i think ive made the decision to start testing tomorrow, a full day earlier than i had planned. i think that i just need some hint on how i should be feeling. i feel like im so threatened by peeing oas that the hpt has the upper hand in the equation. im actually scared of it. in order to try to regain the upper hand in the battle versus the evil inanimate object, i think im just going to start testing in the am. it is what it is. maybe ill be pleasantly surprised.. we'll see.