2 of hearts...

2 hearts (blueberry's and mine) that beat as one, 2 of hearts, i need you i need you... (a million points if you realize those are 80's song lyrics)

soooooooooo, today we were blessed enough to see the little blueberry's tiny heart beating. to say i was a complete wreck before would be an understatement. i cried a few tiny tears of joy and squeezed lovedove's hand watching the screen. i think that i was in a state of disbelief that the image on the sonogram screen was what is going on in my body. i cant believe i finally have a sonogram picture with my name on it, and visual proof of this new pregnancy. i am so happy right now and i am trying to doing a better job at being relaxed and happy in the moment. i am going to convince myself that there is no reason to worry excessively, unless there is some sign that i should be worried. as long as my breasts continue to make removing a bra momentarily agonizing, i will try not to worry.

as we're so open with our family and friends, i had a million text updates to send, and each one was responded to with congrats and smiley emoticons. i feel very fortunate to have the support system that we have, and that includes this amazing community of women of the blogging world. i truly do feel like we're all a part of one big team and i love that we all take turns rooting for each other. im looking forward to cheering for the ladies who haven't gotten their bfp yet, i know they're coming!

anyway, here's the first glimpse of the blueberry......

next step is to find a high risk dr. have a place in mind, its a practice comprised completely of women. they're local, are affiliated with the hospital i want to give birth at, and my RE knew of them and spoke highly of them when i mentioned them. bing-o. sounds like a win already. ill be making that call tomorrow and hoping that they can get me in there in the next week or two. i really just didn't want to count my chickens (thank God there was only one baby in there) too soon. happy to be graduating from my RE but i will certainly miss all of the staff. they were truly wonderful through the whole process. OH! almost forgot, we asked my RE if we could donate my leftover injectables, and he said no, some legal BS etc. then i spoke with my nurse and she said ( of course they would be able to accept and pass along the unused meds to women who could not financially afford all of the meds in a regular situation) the same thing. wink. yay to paying it forward.

looking fwd to a fun weekend. first pool party at a friend's house this weekend. woohoo! cant wait to get sofia in the water again!